Monday, January 26, 2009

Knobeln, ...

... knobeln und studier'n ,
stricken, stricken und probier'n.
Will die Melly schikanier'n,
ein neues Muster kalkulier'n!

Tja, soviel zu dem, was ich gerade mache....
ist doch leicht, daß ich nicht lache...
One Sock more Design, der Knoten ist geplatzt...
und nun wird nicht mehr gepatzt!

Schnell, schnell bald ist Abgabe,
nur nicht faul sein, später ich mich labe!
Gut Ding wollt Weile haben,
aber nun ist's vorbei mit den Gehaben!

Weiter weiter, schneller schneller
lachen kann ich später dann im Keller!


Saturday, January 24, 2009

Liebe Birgit!

Leider kann ich Dir keine PM schreiben, da Du nichts beim Kommentar hinterlassen hast.
Das ist schade, aber dann mach ich es hier halt öffentlich.
Du schreibst:
"Schade, das der kleine Kerl alleine ist - 2 würden Dir sicherlich noch mehr Freude bereiten -
DU bist ja schließlich auch nicht alleine?
Und die Ausrede, man ist den ganzen Tag zuhause und beschäftigt sich mit dem Tier, lass ich hier nicht gelten...
Den Menschen als Partnerersatz ist genauso wenn der Mensch mit ner Giraffe zusammenleben würde ... "

Ich möchte Dir hier erklären, warum unser "Edward" a.k.a. Eddie NOCH alleine ist:
Erstens haben wir noch keine passende Henne für ihn gefunden!
Zweitens wollten wir erst (wir haben ihn ja erst seit Oktober), daß er sich an die Gegebenheiten unseres lauten Heimes und vor allem an uns gewöhnt!

Geplant ist schon seit langem, daß unser Eddie eine Bella an seine Seite bekommt und wir sind momentan schon in Verhandlung mit dem Züchter unseres Vertrauens. Kann nicht mehr lange dauern, da es dort schon nestjunge Mädels gibt. Also mach Dir da mal keine Sorgen, wir sind nicht so dumm, daß wir uns darüber keine Gedanken gemacht hätten.

Nun noch zu dem "Du bist ja schließlich auch nicht alleine?"
Wie schon oft hier im blog erwähnt, bin ich sehr wohl ALLEINE und zwar schon seit mehr als 7 Jahren. Ich habe keinen Ehemann (nie gehabt!), Partner, nicht mal ein Boyfriend treibt in meinem Leben sein "Unwesen"! Ich bin total ALLEINERZIEHEND und ganz ehrlich: Stolz drauf!
Und wenn die Kids in spätestens 15 Jahren das Weite suchen, dann bin ich sogar Mutterseelen-alleine!

Schon allein deshalb, weil ich weiß, wie es sich anfühlt, würde ich niemals zulassen, daß unser Vogel allein sein Dasein fristen muß.
Unser alter Hansi hatte auch sein Weibchen, bis es dann gestorben ist....und leider hat er sich nie mehr mit einem anderen Vogel angefreundet (wir hatten es versucht!).
Soweit so gut, alle "Klarheiten" beseitigt? *grins*

Liebe Grüße

Friday, January 23, 2009


Look, what we found in your tea-cupboard *giggles*:

I did not realize until Donna told me this:
"Mom, I am going to drink some tea, that SPARKLES...."
She really got me with this one, I looked at her dumbstruck and asked:
"What do you mean?"
Now the answer was:
"Well, Mom, have a look:
This is EDWARD-tea and Edward sparkles in the sun....and so does this tea!

Twilight...or how I got sucked into another world.

Huh, it has been quiet here onblog, hasn't it? time flies if you are having fun and I got a story to tell you today...

It all started about half a year ago, when my daughter Donna came home from school with a thick book. My daughter, not much of a reader, was so excited and immediately sat down to read. I was awestruck.....Donna? Reading? A big fat book?.....and the kid never stopped reading, wanting more and begging me to buy her the "Twilight-series".
So at first I bought her the third book, because at that time she had already read the first two books twice (!). Then i got the first book for good measure, because her friend was reluctant to give her her copy once again.
Lucky for me, that a friend stepped in and got her the second book for X-mas. (Thanks Ricarda!)
So she was now prepared for book 4, which has not been released in Germany yet.
Reading the first 3 books of the series for the 5th time around now, she hardly ever left the house.
I just couldn't believe it....what was it with these books, that got my "nearly-teenage" (she is going to be 13 on March 13th) NON-reader to actually read? I was curious!

(and I wanted to write a "MOM-letter" to Stephenie Meyer to thank her for getting my kid to read....)

At first Donna wouldn't even let me peep into the books, only throwing sentences from the characters at my dump face every now and then. When I asked to read at least the first book, her reply was: "Oh Mom, this is not for you! You are going to spoil it all for me!"
Well, thanks a bunch....I always thought of myself as a "kewl Mom", not so far away from her own teenage years. (A bit reluctant to accept that they were over and facing adulthood, but after all the 16 year old inside of me stirred from time to time....)

I decided to just let her be and be glad that Stephenie Meyer had brought my daughter to actually read with her novels.
Then the film "Twilight" was released and we could watch the trailers on Youtube and everywhere else ... which I didn't, because it still does not make sense to me to watch a movie based on a novel, which I hadn't read ... my daughter was so excited and was surfing the internet for more juicy details on the film and reading spoilers and getting more giggly by the minute.

One morning last week: "Uhmm, Mom, Twilight has been finally released here in Germany, can I go to watch the premiere of the movie with my friends?"

And then the breakthrough:" I would let you read the book, if you let me go...."
LOL, of course!

So she went to watch the movie, while her Mom cuddled on the sofa with lots of cusions and beverages and snacks. Let me get the picture of this hype, please! Please tell me I am not too much of a Mom already to not understand....
Be quiet, world, so I might catch a glimpse of the big picture!

And I started reading, at first slowly trying to suck it all in, watching myself from the outside and analyzing every sentence to get behind the thoughts of writer and readers. The novels were rated "for young readers, 12 years and older".

So I was still the "Mother", when I read the first pages...wondering, what teenage girls found so appealing about this I read slowly, then faster as the story was really good written, even more faster as the story unfolded and then in a frenzy....before I knew it I was sucked into the Twilight-world, not realizing that the story really had gotten to me. No time for food, drink or anything human needs matter at the fact, that this teenage heroine Bella fell in love with her personal angel, the most beautiful and heartbreaking Edward?

And the twists and turns the story took, just brilliant. It was as if I could see them right there before my eyes, living their lifes in the neighborhood just for me to spy on them. And yet I knew, this was all just fictional not for real...still!

Within a day I had finished the first book and asked Donna for the second one (New Moon).

I just couldn't stop reading now, I wanted to know, how the story went on....
will the love-story outlast the circumstances? Will they be happy?
Or what threat was around the corner this time?

I read and read and nearly threw the book out of the window, when it came to the "BIG No-Go" of Edward leaving his Bella to "protect" her from further harm(sorry spoiler here)...if it would have been for real, I would have ripped him apart myself right now... but then things suddenly turned good again, not without some really odd twists. The second day had passed and I finished the second book.
Hey, I couldn't help it, it was as if the story had it's own life, it's own heartbeat and I really got sucked into it. It was like dreaming!
I was in it, living there right next to the characters,
hating, wallowing and loving with them.

No way to stop!


Donna was reading book three (Eclipse) for the 7th time, but I really was urgent to have it. Like a drug-addict on Cold turkey I wanted the book so badly, that I would have traded my soul for it. It was so urgent to me to read on, to know more.

I was drained, but at the same time I never felt so alive in a long time.

For crying out loud: It's only a book! but I wanted and needed to go Donna went to see the movie "Twilight" for the second time, while her Mom huddled on the bed to read.
(now ain't I bad? lol)

I also finished the third part within a day. At times while reading I had to stop, because the tension got so bad, that I held my the end of the day all my muscles were cramped and my body if I had done a marathone-a reading marathone that was.

Now it was time to go and watch the movie with my daughter. She actually asked me to join her to watch it...the other two sweeties went to watch a different movie (bless them!)
Of course I had done some serious preparations for this:
I watched the trailers and read spoilers, reviews and fansites!

I was totally in the hype, but all of this did not prepare me for this:

There was I

-- 35 year old Mom and way past my expiration date --

swooning with my daughter over Rob Pattinson (be still my heart, be still!), who played the roll of Edward...

(although coming to think of it....Carlisle was quite a burner...*gg*)

giggling when Edward looked Bella deeply in the eye and holding my breath, when he kissed her, growling when it came to the great showdown with EVIL James and sighing in relief, when it all ended well. My teenage inner-self came to show and it was all like being 16 again...

Although I was a little disappointed, the film does not live up to the book, we really had a great time and lots to talk about afterwards. BUT: You do have to read the book before watching the movie, so you know more of the details, that can't be mentioned in the film!!

Donna called me "her childish, cool and crazy" Mom and this really felt so great to hear!

And I read the first 3 books a second time...looked for spoilers the fourth book on the Internet and then I ordered myself to get the fourth and last book (Breaking Dawn) from Amazon.
In English, of course, because the German translation will not be on the market until Feb. 14th.
(can't wait THAT long!)

My daughter Donna will have to and wants to wait, although I offered her to get to read the book in English first. She gave up after 60 pages!*sigh*

So the way was free for me to read it, she was disgruntled with me for being able to read the book first, but never mind...this time...
and what shall I say: The fourth book is the best book of the series!!!
It really took me by surprise: Was there a way that this would get even better?
YEAH, there was and so I was reading again as if I were in a frenzy, nothing stopping me now...last night ( - after 1 1/2 days of reading- at 2 a.m.) I read the last pages of the book.
Tears were streaming down my face at the end and I still can't believe it is all over...

will I go and see the movie again? Maybe!

will I read the series again? Of course!
(but then in English only please....saving up now to buy the first three parts in English)

will I go and get the DVD of the movie? Definitely!

will I go and watch the second film? Most definitely! (why are you asking?)

So that is the story of not being on line the last week...
my teenage inner-self took control and I am not unhappy about it...AT ALL!

Liebe/r deutsche/r Leser/in!
Leider kann ich das nicht übersetzen, die Übersetzung durch ein Sprachtool (wie babelfish) ist nicht schauderhaft! Aber für einen Lacher gut, also probiert es aus, wenn ihr mögt!
Aber falls ihr das doch gelesen und verstanden habt, dann wisst ihr nun so ziemlich genau, wie es mir die letzte Woche ergangen ist und seht, daß es mir wieder ganz gut geht.... DANKE für die lieben Mails, die mich erreicht haben und nach mir gefragt haben! Ich freu mich, daß ich nicht nur so vor mich hinschreibe, sondern ganz liebe Menschen sich um mich sorgen! Ich liebe Euch alle! :-))
Liebe Grüße

Socken, die Freude machen - Fragebogen

Auf den letzten Drücker habe ich mich (nach langem Hin-und Herüberlegen) hier angemeldet:

Socken, die Freude machen

Und hier ist mein Fragebogen:

1. Welche Schuhgröße hast du?

2. Wie lang in cm sind deine Füße genau ?
26,5 cm

3. Welchen Umfang hast am Ballen und über den Spann?
25 cm, 27 cm

4. Welche Art von Socken magst du am liebsten? Sneakers, „normale“ Socken, Kniestrümpfe? Welche magst du nicht so gerne?
Ich hasse Kniestrümpfe! „Normale“ Socken mag ich sehr gerne, allerdings sollte der Schaft nicht länger als 15 cm sein.

5. Welche Muster magst du bei Socken? Zöpfe, Löcher, Stinos?
Mustersocken (egal welcher art) mag ich sehr gerne, aber wegen der Schuhe sollte der Fußteil glatt sein.

6. Welche Farbe magst du gern, welche gar nicht?
Lieblingsfarben sind pink, rosa, lila und rot. Blau und Beige mag ich auch sehr gerne, Braun dagegen überhaupt nicht....

7. Welche Garnzusammensetzung magst du ? Was geht gar nicht?
Bitte nicht mehr als 30% Poly-schwein, ansonsten geht alles. Ganz gerne hab ich die Elastikbaumwolle von EWA, die ist supertoll!

8. Wie dick sind deine Socken im Normalfall? 4-fach, 6-fach, 8-fach ?
4- , ab und zu auch 6-fach.

9. Nascht du gerne? Was besonders gern bzw. was geht gar nicht?
Bitte nur fettfreie Gummitierchen
(will ja abnehmen, aber alles mit weniger als 30 % Fett ist okay)

10. Trinkst du gerne Tee, Kaffee?
Ich liebe Rooibuschtee mit Vanille oder auch anders "gewürzt" (bitte aber nur Beutel);
bei Kaffee haben wir eine Padmaschine, ich mag gerne auch hier aromatisierten Kaffee.

11. Welches Strickzubehör benutzt du?

Ich liebe liebe liebe meine Knitpicks Harmonywood-nadeln (2,75mm)! Und auch meine Veilchenholznadeln in 2,5mm.
Ansonsten so alles, was man halt braucht: Markierer, Maßband, etc.

12. Spinnst du?
Nein. Oder doch? *lach*

13. Sammelst du etwas?
Schafe, Schaftassen, Schlüsselanhänger (gut, daß niemand meinen Schlüsselbund sehen kann....da bin ich ganz Kind *grins*), Sockenwolle, ( Strick-) Bücher, Strickhefte...

14. Was sollte deine Fee sonst noch wissen ?
Habe ein Vorpubertier und zwei Pubertiere...alles Mädels!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Dieser kleine Kerl... / This little guy...

...macht mir so viel Freude und hat geholfen, daß ich mich wieder auf dem Weg der Besserung befinde! Es ist einfach schwer, deprimäßig rumzuhängen, wenn dieser kleine Clown seine Possen reißt...
Ist er nicht einfach süß? making my life so bright and has helped to get me on the way to feel better!
It's hard to be gloomy, when this little guy is clowning around...
Isn't he just sweet?

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Es wird... / One will...

...nicht so heiß gegessen, wie gekocht wird!

Nach ein paar E-mails und Gesprächen, Notfallmedizin und viel Schlaf und Flüssigkeit geht es mir etwas besser und es sieht nicht mehr alles so düster aus!
Ich bedanke mich herzlich für Gebete und gute Gedanken, die mir geschickt wurden! :-))

image © by Barbara Clare Goodwin

...not eat the food as hot, as one cooks the food! (not so very good translation for a German proverb, which also means that "at second glance a situation is not as terrible as it seemed to be at first glance".)

After a few e-mails and talks, emergency-medication and much sleep and fluids I am feeling better and it does not seem as dark as it did!
I am very thankful for prayers and good vibes that came my way! :-))

Edit 13.01.09: Es ist so lieb von Euch, daß ihr um mich besorgt seid und das hat auch dazubeigetragen, daß die blöden "Keiner vermisst Dich"-Stimmen viel leiser geworden sind! DANKE!
und damit ich hier nicht haufenweise Ferndiagnosen bekomme,
möchte ich doch schnell auf diesen Post von mir hinweisen.

Die Diagnose steht nämlich schon seit geraumer Zeit und ich habe gute und schlechte Tage,
die Episode von letzter Woche war ein Mega-tief nach dem tollen Weihnachtshoch und der darauffolgenden Erkältung. Mein Doc hat mich nun umgestellt und die Spritzendosis erhöht.
Nun heißt es: Abwarten und TEE-trinken!

Friday, January 09, 2009

Grüße! / Greetings!

Grüße aus dem tiefsten Depri-loch!

Die Depression hat mich gerade arg im Griff und ich habe nicht wirklich Lust
zu schreiben, lesen, stricken oder sonst irgendwas....
nicht mal telefonieren macht mir Spaß und dabei ist das doch das, was mir viel Freude macht. :-(( ... ich könnt nur noch heulen!

Hinzu kommt die doofe, hinterlistige und gemeine Stimme aus dem "Off":
"Dich vermisst doch eh keiner! Wäre sowieso besser, wenn Du nicht da wärest...."

Ich kämpfe und strample, aber sehe irgendwie kein Licht....
wer mich kennt, weiß, daß ich sowohl im richtigen Leben als auch hier auf dem blog (mein zweites Zuhause) immer ehrlich und offen bin und deswegen macht es auch keinen Sinn, mich zu vergraben und diese Seite meines ICHs zu verstecken.

Gut, daß ich die Kinder habe (hurra für meine Mädels!),
die bringen mich doch immer wieder dazu weiterzumachen
und im Moment einfach nur aufzustehen! :-)

Es tut mir nur leid, daß ich so ein Jammerlappen bin...sorry!

(und ich schreib das nicht hin, um jetzt viele "Wir vermissen Dich" Kommentare zu bekommen,darum geht es nicht -> obwohl ich mich immer über Kommentare freue...
.... ich muß nur drüber schreiben, vielleicht hilft es mir wieder rauszukommen!)

Greetings out of the black depth of the depression!

I am fighting against depressions and am not feeling well at the moment.
Not even knitting, reading or writing can cheer me up....
not even telephoning helps to cheer me up and this is not good,
as I normaly love to talk on the telephone.
the only thing I can do right now is to cry...

Plus there is that terrible voice out of nowhere telling me this:
"No one is going to miss you! It would be better, if you weren't here at all...."

I am fighting and struggling, but somehow I can't see the light...
People who know me, also know that I am a very honest person as well in my "REAL" life as on this weblog (my second "HOME") and therefore there is now way of hiding and not letting you know, why I am absent at the moment.

Good for me, that I have the kids (hooray for my girls!),
they manage to keep me going
and right now to get up out of bed every morning! :-)

I am just sorry to be so whiny right now...please forgive me!

(And I am not writing this to get loads of "we miss you" comments
-> although I really like all your comments
I just need to write this down, maybe it will help me to get out of this quicker...)

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Gute Vorsätze für's Neue Jahr / New Year's Resolutions

Es wird Zeit hierfür (durch die Medikation habe ich doch arg zugelegt....):

It's time for some weight-loss, I have gained alot because of my medication:

Diät-Ticker - Sichtbar abnehmen


Happy Birthday, Elena!

Ellies Auge / Ellies Eye (photo curtesy by Donna Eileen)

My dear one,

today is your eleventh birthday!

You know I haven't got enough money to buy you the world
or a lonesome island or give you expensive gifts.

If I could I would travel
to heaven and pick the brightest star for you.

If I could I would travel
the world just to tell all the people just how special you are to me.

If I could I would ask
the finest singers of this world to compose and sing you a special birthday song.

If I could I would swim
all the oceans of this world and gather all the animals within them to cheer just for you.

If I could I would climb
the highest mountains and get snow from their tops for you to play with.

If I could I would
let all the presidents of this earth give you an applause.

All these things I would do for you....and I can't!

But there are a few things I can do
and that is to tell you every day, that I really love you
and hug and kiss you and give you all the love I have. :-))

I know this will not seem much for most people, but for us two this is the best I can give.

And I just want to give you a little something for your way through life:

Don't ever forget that I love you and I am happy that you are here!

God gave a gift to the world when you were born—
a person who loves, who cares,
someone who touches each life she enters,
and makes a difference in the world!
There is no one on this world, that is just like you,
you are unique in your own shiny way!

I wish you the happiest of birthdays,
and many, many more,
so that others have time to appreciate you
as much as I do.

love and hugs